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So, I think I learned the difference between the self-respect and the ego in terms of making efforts for some other person or people because I still remember my So [clears throat] sorry for that. college time when I was making constant efforts and um be it college time, be it before that, and be it after that. Because I think I may have fallen for that person's efforts, the way they were putting in efforts for maybe other person or for yourself also be in in helping out something. And I mistakenly may have seen that, you know, that person may be available for me to uh do the same efforts again and again. But yeah, I was wrong. And it was very heartbreaking for a long time of duration. Be it my learn 12th standard, be it my bachelor's studies in computer engineering, and then master's in data science from United States. I think it was fine. Yeah, in that time uh we didn't have, but after coming back to India in COVID time, yes, there was again this. So, um yeah, currently also like I saw that, you know, I'm ready to give the efforts and you know, that person is also okay, fine. They are very loving, they are very warm uh with full of warmth and everything. And but um you need that you crave that attention and you need that so you are not getting it. So, it's I think it's fine uh because it's their journey and what I have been trying to do is try to get their attention through many ways. But it didn't work out. So, I think that has been a very big learning for me over that time. And it was really stressful and yeah, it was really difficult It it was really difficult to describe and it's still if if I think sometimes it still affects. But um thankfully touch wood like being grateful and being gratitude with the things which I have be my family, be it my friends and be it the work which I'm doing helping out those as much as possible be it the students or I'm not helping out but being that mediator through which I could you know help someone out because again it's it's maybe the universe or destiny or God who is helping me out. I think that. I'm just the mediator or the medium through which it is happening. So which I'm loving it and yes it does gets lonely sometimes but I try to go towards the solitude side which me which has been helping me out and I just wanted to share this honestly here and maybe I'll keep sharing and see in the next one then. Thank you so much for watching this one. Thank you. Adios amigos. Bye-bye. I'll go. Take care.